Why I moved

I knew we had to get away so that's why I agreed when he said it was time to start a new adventure. There were too many memories here. Tom, Gatsby, Tom, Gatsby, Tom, Gatsby, this is all I think about being here. When I look across the lake I know that right there is Gatsby's beautiful mansion. I think about what the pool looked like after he was shot and I get awful, terrible nightmares. I'm going to miss Nick, he was the best cousin I've ever known and I'll always love him. Nick never judged or got involved even though he was somehow always there. Nick is going to hate me when I leave without saying goodbye but every time I think or talk to Nick, I think of Gatsby. I am haunted by him and I feel like if I get away things can only get better from there. Tom and I will be happy somewhere else with no settings and people.

What I was feeling when I found out I had a daughter

I want a boy. I dreamed and prayed that I would have a boy. I wanted a boy. Instead I got a poor little fool who will live in a man's world. She can never be successful, she can never be her true self, and she can never let lose. My little girl will have to marry rich, do whatever he husband says, and always watch as to how she is acting. I'll have to teach her how to trick rich men into loving her. I will have to tell her that she can't be independent and will have to always be dependent on a man. Oh how I feel sorry for her. If I knew I was going to have a girl when I got pregnant I would have taken it back. She's going to be a poor little fool. I wanted a boy, I really wanted a boy. I'll love her and worry about her and have to watch her as she grows into a younger me. I didn't want a younger me! Because I, like her, am a little fool.

What I was thinking when I heard about Gatsby's Death

Of course I feel guilty but not guilty enough to confess what I'd done. It was assumed after we ran from the scene that he would take the blame for me. It was the gentlemen thing to do. I loved him, I really did but maybe his death was for the better. I had my young little fool with Tom and it was meant to be that I stay with him. If Gatsby never died I don't think I would have ever been able to leave him because our love was like no other. I'll miss him and think about him everyday but really this is the smart way to live with Tom. I was so love struck I didn't even think about what would happen if the money ran out because only god knows where he got all that money. The rule is: Rich girls don't marry poor boys. I could never risk that with Gatsby even if he was loaded when we fell in love all over again. It makes me sad to think about the fact that Mr. Wilson shot while he was just lounging in the pool. Gatsby didn't kill anyone, I did and yet he died for it. No one will ever know my secret besides Nick (we all know he would never tell) and that's the way it will stay. Gatsby's death was probably best for me and that is how I will think about it.

What I was feeling when I hit Myrtle

I felt crazy, sad, scared, insane, depressed, and terrified. I didn't know she was going to run in front of the car and I don't even know she is. Why did she run at the car as if she knew who the person was inside? Why did she seem familiar? I've never thought of myself as a woman who could be known as hitting someone. I ran away from the crime scene. How could I not? I panicked. I don't want to go to jail, I am not a woman who can survive in jail. What would everyone think of me? No, no one can ever know about this, this will always stay a secret. I will never get caught and someone else will take the blame for it. It wasn't really my fault, it was hers! She ran at the car. Yes, that's it! She ran at the car and I couldn't simply think fast enough to stop the car. I will not get caught. No one will ever know

Why I chose Tom over Gatsby

It was almost an easy decision yet it will always be the hardest decision of my life. It took a lot of thought but in the end I went with my gut feeling. I also thought about when Gatsby left for the army and left me. He left me here to pick myself up, to move on, and to find Tom and fall in love all over again. How would I know that Gatsby will never leave me? How do I know that his money will never run out and we will be left with nothing? I had to take all of this into consideration and decided it was best to stay with Tom. There was never a doubt in my mind that I loved Tom. Tom loves me even if we both strayed away to others, I know we will always find each other. Tom is stable because he has money, I know everything about him, and I need to stick to what I chose in the beginning. Gatsby is mysterious and I feel as if there is always something he's not telling me. I am not the kind of woman who can stay sane never knowing what his thoughts are or who he truly is. Tom is the right choice and I will not turn back on my promise.

What I was thinking when I saw Gatsby

It was just a normal day when I was on my way to Nick's small cottage. I thought we were just simply going to have lunch. It was a hot day and I could feel the heat beating down on my skin. BUT when I first laid eyes on Gatsby after not seeing him for eight years I was speechless and dumbfounded. It was so long ago that we were in love but it was this love was the strongest of feelings that one could ever feel. He was training for the army and as soon as I laid eyes on him for the first time I knew I loved him. He left me though, He went to the army and left me here to move on,to find a new life, to find a new love. I know I technically left him because he didn't have any money but that's besides the point. Either way it was his fault we broke up.I wanted to run into his arms and run away at the same time but I still just could not pull my eyes away. My second thoughts were how am I going to approach this? Am I going to have an affair or am I going to stay faithful to my husband? These thoughts terrified me and I then realized that this was what life is throwing at me and it was made to be. I know I love my husband but why does this feel so right?